“It’s not me, it’s my anxiety”

“It’s not me, it’s my anxiety”

“It’s not me, it’s my anxiety”

I came across this blog post a short while ago. The author, who suffers from depression and mild anxiety, talks about how simple relationships become so complicated. There is so much about this post that makes sense to me, as I often feel the same.
Have a read of the post here (“It’s not me, it’s my anxiety” by Confessions of a Forces Housewife).

I am not the only one

From reading this I’m clearly not the only one feeling this way. I have often felt somewhat awkward when meeting new people, and still do. I’d love to know if this is down to being socially inept, or if I have always had the anxiety as company. Perhaps they go hand in hand.
There has been numerous times when I have agreed to meet with someone, only to cancel at the last minute. Up to that point, my mind has been racing with reasons why not to go, as well as telling myself I am being ridiculous and stupid and that I should just go. And still I cancel. Well, maybe less now than before, so I do believe it’s something you learn, that you have to do certain things to fit in socially too. But the relief when I’ve made to the decision to cancel, having told the person too, is immense.

Try not to say no all the time

As hard as it is, having people around you is so important. We all need someone to hear us, listen and advice, give us a hug or simply just be there. You might think that when you are at a low point that nobody will be interested in speaking to you, that you don’t have anything to contribute, and all the negative thoughts take over, making matters worse. If you can, try to respond to a text message or email. It doesn’t have to be a long answer, just something to show that you are there. For the person reaching out to someone who has withdrawn, know that your continued attempts means the world. I might not feel able to respond to you at the time, but knowing that you are there matters. Knowing that you will stay in contact whilst I am going through this helps. Knowing I am not alone in this, and that you will still be there regardless of whether I respond or not, helps.

Understanding

This is all difficult, and I wish I could understand how my brain works. I certainly would not expect others to understand how I am feeling at times when I do not understand it myself. But then we also sometimes just have to accept that things are as they are, that this is a journey without an end and with a lot of ups and downs. Take it as it comes. Don’t beat yourself up. Look at what you have achieved today. You matter. You are important. Don’t forget that.

Hearts

I chose the above photo of my string of heart plant simply because of the hearts. Lots of hearts from us to you all. Have a great weekend, and if you need us then just get in touch. We are always here.

Shelf update

It is ready! I am not sure what I am most impressed with, that it turned out so good or that I really wanted and enjoyed making it, without stressing (or drawings/instructions for that matter).

-Rosita

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